I feel lonely. I feel like crying. I wish someone calm me down. I feel like screaming so loud, in hope that the lonliness will go away; in hope that the desire to be lived in the life i have imagined will vanish. So much to do, so little desire to do. I just want to stay at home, in bed, watch movies, cry, reading , and pray that I'll get used to this feeling. I don't want to get used to it. But the pain of it, is hard to describe. I'd rather live without it then live like this forever. Two more papers pending, i hope i can achieve the best.InsyaAllah.